Sex.

I am a sex slave.

The sex industry is not the problem of the handful of nasty perverted people in the world who take advantage of the poor and force the children of the impoverished into a prison of brothels.

its our problem.

The world I live in, what I allow to be sold, is what lines the walls of Eka's prison.

Pictures you see of girls sitting on their grimy mattresses, the place where they have numerous violent sexual encounters every day, they always show the walls covered in images of our pop stars... our actresses and actors.

The majority of porn, which so many of us are addicted to, is made by enslaved girls who are lied to every moment of their precious lives... "your worthless because you are a woman.... your honor is gone because this is all you'll ever be good for."

It breaks my heart.

Everyone who hears about disgusting things like the resowing of the hymen... upwards of 20 customers daily... 4 year olds giving oral sex... cages... 

EVERYONE is disgusted by it.

but no one cares about american apparel.

no one cares about classy calvin klein.

no one cares about these TV shows that send the message of CONFIDENCE and then challenge their contestants to strip to their underwear and dance in glass cases.

Bratz dolls in their thongs and spaghetti straps are raved about by little girls.

http://www.womensenews.org/article.cfm?aid=2940

WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME!?!?!

Am I really so lacking in self confidence that I would be alright with passing on the wallpaper that lines the cells of these poor girls?

It's a big trend:

knowing tea, knowing coffee, knowing books, knowing politics, knowing social injustices, condescension towards people who don't buy fair trade, buying toms, buying t-shirts, american apparel,  (i wrote another entry about this a little while ago...)

but its double speak...  we say we care about this stuff but... we don't.

we allow this hyper-sexualized society to control us.

I want to ask Noah for help.

I want to make a short film.

Give up all my American Apparel.

I want to go out in front of the LA headquarters and have Noah film with all his film studentness me stripping off a couple things... and like... piling them up.

then i want to just talk about... them.

I don't want it to be another trend.

LETS ALL FIGHT AGAINST AMERICAN APPAREL.

i just want to talk about how... for ME... thats what I needed to do...

maybe for someone else... its giving up starbucks.

its doing what we find MOST sacrificial as an individual to say... IM NOT A SLAVE.

and i believe in FREEING EKA.