change me

I stayed up til 4 30 reading the word.... not well I might add... I was incredibly distracted...
It's really hard not to read the bible like we do in my classes.
I need to figure out how to balance the romantic feel I once felt from it with the intellectual puzzling we do in classes.

I'm not eating today.

Honestly, I think the most heartbreaking thing is that I don't ever see my friend stoop to cruelty when people are unkind or mess up. Writing things to let everyone know in a poetic way exactly how awful a person is ... that's wrong.
It isn't forgiveness. I don't really have any place to say that... I keep forgetting the person is ME they are talking about... and I want to correct them....
It's unattractive and not as respectful to bash on people in this way.
Very unJesus-like.
I know I've done it before and I know how easy it is.





Did I break your heart by
Straying so far?
From what you have in mind
For my life?

Would you change me from
Who I've been lately?
'Cause I know I'm nothing
Without you

Did my words betray the
Patience I once claimed
Can't you see it in my face?
I need your grace

Would you change me from
Who I've been lately?
'Cause I know I'm nothing
Without you
Would you save me from
The way I've been lately?
'Cause I can't see living
Without you