Friday, March 6, 2009

peters denial

my study for preparation of Art & Faith on Tuesday.

Luke 22:31-34  & 55-62
Mark 14:27-31 & 66-72
Matthew 26: 33-35 & 69-75
John 18: 15-27


-Source: The Four Portraits of Jesus    Mark L. Strauss
p. 191
"While facing death, fear, and dread Jesus remains faithful to his calling.  In Gethsamane, he is "deeply distressed and troubled" and "overwhelmed with sorrow to the point of death."  In agony, he prays that this cup of suffering may be taken away, yet he remains submissive to the Father's will.

In contrast to Jesus' faithfulness stands the failure of the disciples.  When Jesus predicts that they will all fall away, Peter and the rest vehemently deny it.  yet in Gethsemane, they cannot stay awake and pray.  When Judas arrives with a mob to arrest Jesus, everyone deserts him and flees.  Peter shows some courage by following at a distance but then fails miserably by denying him three times.  The narrator uses this sandwiching technique to contrast Jesus' confession before the Sanhedrin (14:55-65) with Peter's denial that he even knows Jesus (14:53-54, 66-72)."


pg. 236   - mentions disciples failure in contrast with the steadfastness of that of the women who are beside Jesus.



Source: IVP BIBLE BACKGROUND COMMENTARY new testament

on Matthew-
"ancient sources typically regarded the rooster as a reliable reporteer of the advent of dawn, and night guards, shepherds and others who were awake at night were also familiar with other crowings, which depending on the time of year, varied between 11:30 pm and 3:30 am.  The point is that the denial was imminent."

"As a servant in an aristocratic household near the temple, this woman had no doubt been at the temple and could have gotten a good look at Jesus' disciples in the temple courts.  "I do not know what you say" is the standard form for denial in Jewish legal texts; calling a known person "the man" was sometimes used contemptuously."
"Galilean accents differed from Judean accents; Galileans were careless with their vowels and failed to clearly differenciate with the various guttural consonants.  The high priests servants and temple guard would have lived in Jerusalem and viewed themselves as Judeans.  some scholars have suggested that Judeans associated Galileans with revolutionaries, but evidence for this suggestion is at best ambivelent given the mistrust between urban and rural dwellers, however it is not unlikely that many Jerusalemites looked down on Galileans. But the point here is simply that the hearer assumes - rightly- that disciples of a Galilean teacher were themselves Galileans.
" The 'curses' Peter utters are not vulgar words; rather, he swears by various things that he does not know Jesus, invoking cuses on himself if he is lying. No one considered the uttering of such curses good religious behavior.
"for most people in the ancient Mediterranean, roosters crowing marked daybreak. Those who were awake much earlier may have recognizedd an earlier Palestinian rooster crowing between 12:30 and 2:30 am.

MARK's commentary is the same but cites : 2nd century A.D. Roman writer Apuleius and Maccabees 5:23.

LUKE's commentary:
"Wheat would be sifted to separate the genuine wheat from other items that had gotten mixed in with it; for the image, see Amos 9:9. For winnowing away the chaff, see Matthew 3:12. The background is presumably Job 1:6-12 where Satan tries to prosecute Job before the heavenly court."
"Peter's trespassing on private property- that of the high priest himself- required serious commitment from a Galilean fisherman. The guards were probably members of the temple guard, waiting to see the results of the trial inside. They may have planned to stay up late for Passover anyway."
" According to later rabbinic teaching, Jewish people were permitted to deny their Jewishness, especially by evasion to save their lives. direct denial that allowed God's name to be reproached , however was considered shameful. Peter probably does not know these specific rules but they may illustrate his cultural setting, which did not always regard denial as severely as Jesus regards it. Like most people, Peter is influenced by his culture and does not yet grasp the radical demands of Jesus in practice."

UNREAL.

k.  i haven't gotten around to mentioning it on here... but there is this kid that i see like 8 times every day.
we make awkward eye contact every time and this has been going on for over a month.

its ridiculous.

the first time was in Heritage when i was getting coffee... we both saw each other and smiled whatever fine cool.

no.

i see him EVERYWHERE and it is so beyond normal its driving me insane.

let me give you an example.
last TUESDAY

1. walk into heritage at 1... while filling out my card i look up and the first person i see is this red haired mustached kid turned around in his chair staring at me.  AWKWARD.
2. i look away and walk over to get my fruit smoothie.... guess whos in line 2 people after me!? guess who i make eye contact with?
3. i sit down with the couple girls from my art and faith class who have their food already... theres Ginger just standing a table away talking to a girl from my class... we meet eyes... AH.
4. he sits down a table away facing me.... is this a joke?  (and seriously... he doesnt seem to be doing it on purpose liek... its just that his friends happen to have chosen that spot.... whyyyyy???)
5. he's gone but when we get up to leave to go to the Leather Room for class hes standing in the doorway so i have to walk by him.
6. im sitting in class ( the leather room is like... a lounge that you arent supposed to have class in but my prof does it anyways.... its attached to the art gallery hall in Duke and theres a giant window... -so that everyone can see you sitting in a comfy armchair discussing with mature greying adults the implications of salvation and blaa blablablabla).....

guess who walks by and sees me THROUGH the window and makes eye contact?!  like... seriously... i want to laugh but i'm so afraid that this kid thinks i'm stalking HIM that i just like stare and dodge my eyes away.

7. thinking its all over i continue throughout my day....
after 2d design i run into the Den to get my Caprese Sandwich.  No one eats as late as i do on this day so I usually grab food to go and head up to start homework or hang out in andrea's room.

my arms are all carrying stuff so i walk up to the door and do a Meaghan kick against the push bar.

guess who the door hits?

... yeah.




OUT OF A MOVIE.
the door swings and nips the mustached orange hair kid and then i almost walk into him.

i apologize and book it.






& it hasn't gotten any better...

turns out... he's friends with like every upper class-man i know.
and is probably going to become one of my friends...

its inevitable...
but what's also inevitable is a conversation we will have.
where i basically have to find a way to 1. convince him i'm a normal human and not a stalker, 2. figure out if he's one... 3. leave feeling NOT-awkward and at peace.... and in a way where i could just say hi every time i see him and not run away like a little freaked out coward.

i was prompted to make this entry because i just had lunch with my RA so we could go over a sweatshirt design i'm working on... & guess who's meeting with her afterward ...

guess who like... tried super hard to awkwardly pretend i wasn't there....

AGAIN... we didn't introduce ourselves...

which means... MORE awkwardness when it has to happen.

UGH.

sing out. sing out. youll live forever. sing out.

in the darkness so cold the son of God gave up his soul...
and the day turned to night as the Father closed his eyes...

and if our debt has been payed who could ever take our joy away?


SING OUT.

the watchmen

1. that sex scene basically ruined the movie for almost all 30 people i went with tonight... it was blasphemous and completely unnecessary, too long and shameful.
2. the music was amazing.
3. point 2 in no way negates point 1.


i would go so far as to say: do not go see watchmen.
MAYBE wait til it is on video and have someone fast forward the 5 minute scene.

like... i dont feel like i'm an immature viewer... but to try and pretend like it didn't really bother me watching all of that... or put all the boys i was with in a weird position would be a lie.  

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

The Second Coming    Turning and turning in the widening gyre  The falcon cannot hear the falconer;  Things fall apart; the centre cannot hold;  Mere anarchy is loosed upon the world,  The blood-dimmed tide is loosed, and everywhere  The ceremony of innocence is drowned;  The best lack all conviction, while the worst  Are full of passionate intensity.    Surely some revelation is at hand;  Surely the Second Coming is at hand.  The Second Coming!  Hardly are those words out  When a vast image out of Spiritus Mundi  Troubles my sight: somewhere in sands of the desert  A shape with lion body and the head of a man,  A gaze blank and pitiless as the sun,  Is moving its slow thighs, while all around it  Reel shadows of the indignant desert birds.  The darkness drops again; but now I know  That twenty centuries of stony sleep  Were vexed to nightmare by a rocking cradle,  And what rough beast, its hour come round at last,  Slouches towards Bethlehem to be born? 

mind altering afternoon.

mmmm.
sitting in my room...  against the wall on my bed...
sweet roibus in my mouth.
smell of cranberry muffin in my hands....

i'm watching the rain create a thin curtain over the outdoors.
birds screeching and flying in little families.

the cars going through the rain on the streets sound like ocean waves...
i love it.

it feels like being home.

the best way to idle your time away....

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