home.

tonight ..

i layed on my back on andrea's floor and stared at the cieling.

i just wanted to escape.

everyones rooms are cluttered with boxes and their things.

we're all packing to go home.

and now... when i need it more than ever, i cannot have tidiness.

i need sea foam with a smattering of yellow ochre.

white birches with a field of breezy poppies.

sky.

i need to lay on my back in my bedroom with my windows all open and the walls illuminated by the sunshine.

i miss just being able to be quiet in my room.

azlyn's always in there.

which is fine... its her room.. but i just need time by myself.

but the thing is you can't do that around here.

there's no where safe to go by yourself as a girl.

for example... i'm sitting here on the floor of my friends room and now Pink has just come on... 

i can't handle that.

i need silence.

i need breezes.